Today I met David for my first session. If I was in doubt before, I'm not now. It's official. I'm unfit. He went so easy on me, yet here I am back at home and my arms and legs feel numb.
Now comes the scary part; today I had two meals - very small ones (and healthy, I might add) yet even with the training, I have gained 2 kilo's since this morning. I am terrified. Usually right about now I sit and swallow a mouthful of laxatives, so that in the morning I would wake up and at least be a little lighter.
I have to be strong for one more hour until the night chemist closes. Then it will be first first night without laxatives in over thirty years!!
Then I will need all my will-power not to weigh myself until Monday night. Five days to go.
This just feels soul-destroying right now. I hope I feel better in five days.
Just checked in to see how you were doing.
ReplyDeleteDon't know if you want comments or not so I won't say too much other than "throw the fucking scales in the bin!"
Thanks Shelley - trying to cut down but old habits die hard. But that is my goal....
ReplyDeleteCheers, and thanks for your support!!!
Jude x