Diet vs Laxative challenge (five weeks)

Oh my God, it's been a year since I last wrote on this blog site....

Well, my cancer is gone;I have written a book about it, and now I am ready for my next challenge.

I have to admit I have been inspired by the television show 'The Biggest loser'. When I saw a woman who was the same age as me (50)overcoming her demons and stopping the excuses I knew I had to change.

But this story really begins last year.....

I had been abusing laxatives for over thirty years, and had gotten into such a vicious cycle of binge-eating followed by the laxatives, I didn't know how to stop. I was so terrified of putting weight on if I ate 'normally'. But I got scared; my kidneys were failing due to de-hydration and my bone mass was shrinking.

I admitted myself into a clinic at the local hospital, because all the signs showed my body was shutting down. I was, in effect, dying.

For six months I trudged along to my meeting, where I was weighed and my emotions discussed. Before I joined the programme I had gained 28 pounds - IN TWO WEEKS!!!! And that was on holiday, where I tried valiantly to eat only three square meals a day. But after so long of bingeing and purging my body clung to every calorie it could.

When I admitted myself to hospital I was desterate for help. Hell, I was dying! But they would not teach me how to eat respponsibly, and lose weight. In fact, they were totally against me losing any weight at all - even though their own figures showed I was well at the high end of my ideal weight range. So, what did I do? I went along each week and lied. And lied. I couldn't convince them that my self-image was no longer related to my self-worth.

But after watching Biggest Loser, something in me has finally snapped. I can now see there's a way to do this. So here's my plan.

1. Exercise EVERY DAY.
2. Eat only proteins, salads, veges and nuts - (with a bit of yoghurt thrown In)
3. Be content to lose only 1 kilo (2.2pounds) each week.

And that's it. I start tomorrow. I haver never tried in my life to just stick with a new life-style with exercise and sensible eating. No I was always in a big rush to lose all my weight overnight. Where has that left me? Trying to lose the same bloody thirty pounds for thirty years! How incredibly stupid and soul-destroying. The nights I never went out because there was food involved, or even worse; I wouldn't have time to purge the food I had already eaten before I went out....

So here goes, my last chance to get this right!

Will report in tomorrow.

Judi x
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