Yesterday I shook and trembled (okay, I might have shed a tear or two) as I was jabbed repeatedly with needles for my CT scan. Now I so swollen (from 60 to 74 kilo's in five days) that my veins have shrunk. I do not recognize my own face!
Back to the doc's for results this afternoon...
One good upshot of this; it sure-as-shit has scared me off the laxatives!!
Jude x
Wednesday, April 13, 2011
Tuesday, April 12, 2011
The Plot (and my ankles!) thickens
To misquote Alice,"Worser and worser..."
Some girls have all the (bad) luck. I get cancer. I conquer cancer. I have a thirty year self-esteem issue. I get over it. And just when things are looking better and I'm getting into the groove of defeating my final gremlin, my liver decides its had enough! Yup, that is why I have gained 7 kilo's in two days - my liver is not producing protein. Goody, something else to worry about.
Back for chest x-rays and a CT scan of my abdomen tomorrow (to ensure the cancer hasn't spread) and to find out just what the hell my liver thinks it's doing!
Gotta tell ya', thirty years of laxative abuse is a reeeaaally bad idea...
Guzzling tea tonight bacause tomorrow is fasting before the x-ray - good for the diet; not good for my temperament first thing in the morning. Heaven help the poor doctor who has to face me in the morning; it won't be pretty.
Felt (and looked) like the Good Year Blimp today, so no exercise. Contemplated it, but when I held up my leggings, I knew I couldn't fit into them; one leg would have used up both sides.
Fingers crossed for the tests tomorrow...
Judi x
Some girls have all the (bad) luck. I get cancer. I conquer cancer. I have a thirty year self-esteem issue. I get over it. And just when things are looking better and I'm getting into the groove of defeating my final gremlin, my liver decides its had enough! Yup, that is why I have gained 7 kilo's in two days - my liver is not producing protein. Goody, something else to worry about.
Back for chest x-rays and a CT scan of my abdomen tomorrow (to ensure the cancer hasn't spread) and to find out just what the hell my liver thinks it's doing!
Gotta tell ya', thirty years of laxative abuse is a reeeaaally bad idea...
Guzzling tea tonight bacause tomorrow is fasting before the x-ray - good for the diet; not good for my temperament first thing in the morning. Heaven help the poor doctor who has to face me in the morning; it won't be pretty.
Felt (and looked) like the Good Year Blimp today, so no exercise. Contemplated it, but when I held up my leggings, I knew I couldn't fit into them; one leg would have used up both sides.
Fingers crossed for the tests tomorrow...
Judi x
Monday, April 11, 2011
Rough day
Today is day 8 - the first day of a new week. I was so excited; going training with Daniel - yeah, sorry Daniel, don't know why I was calling you David - but things didn't quite work out.
Started yesterday when I was out walking. Not one but BOTH my arms went completely numb! Bloody terrifying, I can tell you. Then when I got home and looked down at my legs, I could virtully see them swell right in front of my eyes. My stomach got got larger, and my ankles disappeared. Woke up 6, six, VI kilo's heavier! Arms still numb, so I panicked and went straight to the doctor. He gave me an ECG straight away and said it wasn't my heart. What he is thinking is, thanks to half my innards being removed two years ago and my age, (sob, sob) the problem is hormonal. Thank God I have an excuse for my mood swings!! Waiting for more tests to come back, but as I type this my left hand is almost completely numb; really weird...
Then the damn nurse couldn't get any blood and she kept stabbing away for 10 minutes, while I sat crying like a frightened two year-old. Yeah, like I said, bad day.
No exercise today, was feeling sorry for myself, so came home and had a nice hot bath.
Backinto it tomorrow...
Jude xx
Started yesterday when I was out walking. Not one but BOTH my arms went completely numb! Bloody terrifying, I can tell you. Then when I got home and looked down at my legs, I could virtully see them swell right in front of my eyes. My stomach got got larger, and my ankles disappeared. Woke up 6, six, VI kilo's heavier! Arms still numb, so I panicked and went straight to the doctor. He gave me an ECG straight away and said it wasn't my heart. What he is thinking is, thanks to half my innards being removed two years ago and my age, (sob, sob) the problem is hormonal. Thank God I have an excuse for my mood swings!! Waiting for more tests to come back, but as I type this my left hand is almost completely numb; really weird...
Then the damn nurse couldn't get any blood and she kept stabbing away for 10 minutes, while I sat crying like a frightened two year-old. Yeah, like I said, bad day.
No exercise today, was feeling sorry for myself, so came home and had a nice hot bath.
Backinto it tomorrow...
Jude xx
Sunday, April 10, 2011
One Week Down!
I survived the first week! Who woulda' thunk it?
And, even more amazingly, I didn't weigh myself today. THAT is a definite first!
I still feel fat and bloated, and I am desperately hoping that will change soon. Otherwise I will call in to a health food store and speak with a naturopath and see if they can help. I would hate to become despondent now and undo all the hard work so far.
While it has only been a week, it has been an eternity in the life of one Judi YOung. Every day I have forced myself to eat three meals a day, as well as do one hour's exercise. It's not been easy, but that is the whole point of this; to avoid the easy way out.
Well, one week down and nine more to go. If I feel like giving in to temptation I will remind myself to to get to the end of that particular day...
Tomorrow, another session in the park with Dave - here's hoping I don't embarrass myself too much.
Jude x
And, even more amazingly, I didn't weigh myself today. THAT is a definite first!
I still feel fat and bloated, and I am desperately hoping that will change soon. Otherwise I will call in to a health food store and speak with a naturopath and see if they can help. I would hate to become despondent now and undo all the hard work so far.
While it has only been a week, it has been an eternity in the life of one Judi YOung. Every day I have forced myself to eat three meals a day, as well as do one hour's exercise. It's not been easy, but that is the whole point of this; to avoid the easy way out.
Well, one week down and nine more to go. If I feel like giving in to temptation I will remind myself to to get to the end of that particular day...
Tomorrow, another session in the park with Dave - here's hoping I don't embarrass myself too much.
Jude x
Saturday, April 9, 2011
Day 6 - still strong
Made it to the end of another day, without breaking any rules: ate three regular meals, did my hour of exercise, and I'm feeling better for it. Better still, I'm not hungry - hence no craving for KFC (or Macca's, or bacon and eggs, or Dominoes...)
Only troubling thing is, my body seems to look more bloated than ever - including my usually slim legs - so I'm desperately hoping it is only a readjustment thing.
Plus, as today is Saturday, I have promised myself I will not weigh myself until Monday morning (hey, baby steps, people!)
For the first time in my life I will be happy losing one kilo per week - and that is HUGE progress for me.
One week down, and I can't believe I haven't wavered yet. Yeehaa!!
Jude x
Only troubling thing is, my body seems to look more bloated than ever - including my usually slim legs - so I'm desperately hoping it is only a readjustment thing.
Plus, as today is Saturday, I have promised myself I will not weigh myself until Monday morning (hey, baby steps, people!)
For the first time in my life I will be happy losing one kilo per week - and that is HUGE progress for me.
One week down, and I can't believe I haven't wavered yet. Yeehaa!!
Jude x
Friday, April 8, 2011
Day 5 - what's going on?
Woke up this morning feeling great - until I made my cup of coffee. Went to lift the cup to my mouth, and my arm wouldn't function! Yup, 5 minutes of arm exercises on Monday has completely ruined my drinking arm! Washing my hair in the shower was even worse; I had to use my right arm to propel my left up to my head so I could apply the shampoo. Yeah, real sad, I know.
And worse, since Saturday I have gained 4 kilo's! What the hell's THAT about? I am panicking, at this rate I will go right up to 70 kilo's. But I will keep going: good food; exercise every day, and most importantly - no laxatives. But things better turn around REAL fast, or this chicken's gonna get pretty despondent!!!!!
If anyone has any tips, I'd love to hear 'em at this point.
One good point; although I was stiff and sore today, I still went for a brisk walk, and even managed a few short runs. Go me!
Judes x
And worse, since Saturday I have gained 4 kilo's! What the hell's THAT about? I am panicking, at this rate I will go right up to 70 kilo's. But I will keep going: good food; exercise every day, and most importantly - no laxatives. But things better turn around REAL fast, or this chicken's gonna get pretty despondent!!!!!
If anyone has any tips, I'd love to hear 'em at this point.
One good point; although I was stiff and sore today, I still went for a brisk walk, and even managed a few short runs. Go me!
Judes x
Thursday, April 7, 2011
Day 4 -no laxatives!
I made it through another day!! Yeeha! But getting veeery scared; I have put on 3 lilo's since Sat morning (Today is Thurs). Shows how my entire body system is not working.
Eating three times each day: fruit for breakfast; small home-made pizza with chicken, yoghurt and rocket for lunch, then piece of fish with rocket fro dinner. So how in the hell have I GAINED weight??? But I will see this through - I really want to see if my stomach is truly the result of laxative abuse - and more importantly - will it go back to normal size?
Went for a walk with my friend Anne, and when I got home I was in pain. After yesterday's session with the trainer, my arms hurt, my stomach hurt, and I struggles to get my thighs to function! Can only hope this gets better....
But I must say, I feel better, as though I am really partcipating in my life. What a concept!
Jude x
Eating three times each day: fruit for breakfast; small home-made pizza with chicken, yoghurt and rocket for lunch, then piece of fish with rocket fro dinner. So how in the hell have I GAINED weight??? But I will see this through - I really want to see if my stomach is truly the result of laxative abuse - and more importantly - will it go back to normal size?
Went for a walk with my friend Anne, and when I got home I was in pain. After yesterday's session with the trainer, my arms hurt, my stomach hurt, and I struggles to get my thighs to function! Can only hope this gets better....
But I must say, I feel better, as though I am really partcipating in my life. What a concept!
Jude x
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